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B.C.
02:22
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I don’t mind being alone,
that’s not why I’m blue.
I’m just sick of kisses so intoxicated,
that I can’t even taste you.
It’s so easy to be brave,
when I’m dressed to kill
But this overdose of love is stuck in my throat
like a bitter pill.
I learned some valid lessons, about sleeping around
and here’s what I’ve found:
I can’t forget the life we had by
banging every handsome guy in town
So I’m staying in, I’m coming down.
Let’s pretend that we’re just friends and that I never wanted you from the start
I acted like it meant nothing and that I didn’t hold you in my heart
and I don’t want to shower ‘cause I can still smell you on my skin
All my best lines are on you, oh look at the state I’ve gotten myself in.
I don’t mind being alone,
that’s not why I’m blue.
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Afterparty
03:04
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Afterparty
You never ask me how I feel, or what I’m doing
‘Cause these are the topics that we shouldn’t be pursuing.
But in these secret hours, at the end of the club-
between the music stopping and the sun peeking through the gap in the curtains
We’re beautiful x 3
I can love without shame and
you can feel without blame,
in each other’s arms.
The ones who hurt us in the past
let’s forget them fast
with our bodies warm.
These shared moments can be meaningful if you let them,
if you open up.
Though my heart was open, my warmth was fleeting- I can feel it closing up.
The sun is streaming in,
the spell is broken
and I don't think I can do this again.
You can hold my body but not my heart
it’s been way too soon since we tore it apart.
I thought this would be a transient pain
but the truth is that I’m scared I’ll never love again.
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Oxytocin
03:17
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Oxytocin
Skin on skin
is just another way to get close to you but we
don’t have a choice, for round two
I could see this going somewhere
But that’s a place that I
I don’t want to be.
For the promise of another night,
for the promise of another life
where we love, and we hate
and we repeat the cycle over and over.
It’s like I’m caught between reality and the fantasy of you.
What can I do?
This oxytocin is fuelling my emotions and it’s
getting to me x3
This time alone, has given me the room I need to grow
and that’s something I can’t forego
I’m already thinking about, how to heal his wounds before my own
I should have known, I should’ve known
‘Cause I do this all the time.
For the promise of another night,
for the promise of another life
where we love, and we hate
and we repeat the cycle over and over.
It’s like I’m caught between reality and the fantasy of you.
What can I do?
This oxytocin is fuelling my emotions and it’s
getting to me x3
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Tokidoki
02:31
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Tokidoki
I travelled across the world
to make my dreams come true
there was no malice in my heart but I
I had to do this without you.
Dark wood mixed with incense
raw silk beside a schoolgirl princess
neon lights an indescribable cacophony
on my own I’m much less alone than I used to be
It rained the whole time I was there,
dark shadows, crows ripped through the air
feet soaked it felt like home
and as I walked through the park, I started writing a song
Sometimes it feels like you’re going nowhere fast,
like there’s an ending you can’t see.
みち に まよって います
Could you point me in the right direction?
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10.57
03:11
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10:57
Deep breaths and I’ll count to ten,
I can’t do this to myself again.
Chest bursts I can’t concentrate,
I’m in no fit state to legislate.
Bad things happen to good people,
and good people do bad things;
I can’t trust myself around you now
so I’m gonna have to clip these wings.
Cause if I go to you,
nothing will change
just another 2 weeks
to rearrange and baby,
we can’t keep going up in flames.
It’s 10:57 the lights were reflecting as I flew past the station,
fluorescent drops course down the windscreen.
Let’s say that it’s all right
cause tonight we lost the will to fight and
you’ll be showing her the sights,
as he’s tracing a finger up the ladder in my tights.
Best intentions you forgot your edges,
you left them razor sharp.
I sought safety in your pledges, too late I’m sliced apart.
So I’ll lean in to someone new
days pass think less and less of you
cause I’d rather dress in this disguise than turn into something I despise.
If I’d gone to you, nothing would change,
just another 2 months of fucking games,
tailspin baby, we’re going down in flames.
It’s 10:57 the lights were reflecting as I flew past the station,
fluorescent drops course down the windscreen.
Let’s say that it’s all right
'cause tonight we lost the will to fight and
you’ll be showing her the sights,
as he’s tracing a finger up the ladder in my tights.
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Lou Mclean Edinburgh, UK
LOU MCLEAN is a singer/songwriter who sprang from the GRS Edinburgh collective. Taking her place as the riot grrrl scene’s token pop princess, she writes darkly comedic feminist bangers, always focussing on lyric & melody. Her musical journey has been as eclectic as her influences, spanning genre and ignoring convention. She is currently studying MA in Songwriting at UWS. 'Killjoy' is her 4th EP. ... more
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